I’m sorry I disappear from time to time

it’s nothing against you

I’m just bad at remembering to talk.

It’s something that’s been a constant since I was a child

and I’m not sure it’ll ever go away.

I get in these moods

they’re not necessarily depressions

though maybe they once were;

they’re like riding the subway late at night

when you’re the only one on the train

and you don’t feel lonely,

you’re just there

and you’re sort of tired,

but you still have enough energy to make yourself dinner when you get home-

at least something filling, if not a full meal.

It’s not a cry for help

and I’m certainly not lonely

but I want you to know I’m still here

I’m just less

I guess

2 thoughts on “I’m sorry I disappear from time to time”

  1. Love this, Lauren. I love most of your stuff. Sometimes it feels like you’ve peeled open your chest to let us see your heart bleeding, quietly. It feels like a privilege. And I get what you mean about disappearing. Sort of here, sort of tired, not lonely, but less. A song for the times.

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