I’m done fucking lying to myself,
Keeping things in just because it hurts.
When I’m in pain,
I’ll talk about it.
I’ll work through it.
I’ll get over it.
And I’ll be stronger for it.
I’m sick of being a bystander in my own life,
Watching as things just happen.
As I make a friend,
Lose a friend,
Drop out of school,
Start again just for the hell of it.
From now on I do things because I fucking want to
not because it’s what everyone else is doing,
But because it’s my god damn life
And I can make my own decisions.
If I don’t want to go back to school,
If I want to work part time while writing on the side
I fucking will.
If I want to go get a coffee,
And that new book I heard about,
Even though the mall is a half hour away,
And there might be traffic
Or a lot of people.
No more excuses for easy things.
I’ll call for that doctors appointment,
I’ll go get my oil changed on my own.
Hell, I’ll go for a drive just to clear my head
Just because I wanted to listen to that one song as loud as I can handle.
And scream the lyrics along with the band.
And I’ll be a stronger person for it.
I’ve been through hell already,
Who’s to say I can’t get through more?